SEPTEMBER

9 1 2024

I'm not formatting like I normally do, sorry about that, lol. August was really terrible so I didn't feel like updating at all.
Some good things happened though, so we'll start there. The kids started school back and it's going very well. They both really like their teachers which is awesome. I had sort of a break through when it comes to talking to people that has made it so much less stressful. I'm not really sure I can articulate it very well yet, but it feels like a miracle, tbh. Oh! And I got Urban Heat's The Tower to listen to on my CD Player and the car. I really love it.
As for the bad, I had a medical emergency that may have been a seizure, or could be something else entirely. It was a nightmare to get seen by someone to get the neurologist consult. She's supposed to call today, but it's getting late and she still hasn't. If she doesn't today I'll have to try calling on Tuesday. Goddamned holidays, blegh. We're all really stressed about it, but I did get an MRI and they said my brain cyst is the same as it was two years ago, so it's probably not that. That said, not having an idea at all is annoying.
I'm sure I'll be okay eventually, even if it means I have to make phone calls a bunch. It was so scary.

9 3 2024

Well, still no call from the Neuro. I think they might've said, "I'll call tomorrow" and then forgot that it was Labor Day weekend, so I'm not really stressed out about it yet. If they don't call today, I'll call them instead. I wanna make something today, so I'll distract myself throughly and keep my phone on and loud lol
It's really lovely out today and I feel better than I did all last week, so I'm hopeful about this one. If all's well next weekend were gonna go meet my spouse's mum and dad at a cabin for my youngest kid's birthday. They want to go fishing for their birthday, lol. It should be a really nice time. I'll have to take pictures while were there.
Even though I'm feeling better, I'm definitely going to try and keep taking it as easy as I can. I have a tendency to do to much directly after recovering from shit, and it gets me more trouble everytime. Not gonna push it this time, lol

9 5 2024

Well, we luckily figured out what's wrong with me. Luckily, it is something that I can actively do (several) something(s) about. One of those things is exercising, so I've started running in the morning so I can see the sun rise. Well sort of. I like the way the sun is diffused in the morning when you can't see it. It makes the light feel so soft and kind of ambient.

I'm hoping to get something more than cleaning done today. I did a bunch yesterday to get back to where I was with the house. Unfortunately if I don't feel well the house languishes too, so it can take a second to get everything caretaken again.